I want to thank those of you who came for cumming to my party!
It was a blast!
A SPECIAL thanks goes out to MIKE haha. I never would have expected him to cum....but he did!
He broke out of his shell, supported my ass, and it is much appreciated! <3
Kevin apparently wants to throw these every couple of months because everyone had so much fun.
So if you didn't get a chance to cum this time, it's ok just watch out for our next party!
- Thanks for the GREAT SEX!
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xelven_beautyx- September 14th, 11:02
- OMG Portuguese fooooooood!!!!!!
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- xelven_beautyx
- August 3rd, 18:43
sooo i finally was able to settle my craving! Now that I am in Pompano I was able to go to Seabras and i got a whole bunch of Portuguese food including Chourico and Linguica (FINALLY) ooo I also got me some Sumol ananas sooo YAYYYYYY
I can cook me some Portuguese soups and sausage yummmmmm
I am super happy right now!
And will probably be making the 3 hour drive down here a few times a year to restock haha but at least I know i can YAY!!!
- Lessons learned from shit
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- xelven_beautyx
- July 31st, 12:43
When we are in darkness, we need to know there is light somewhere.
It may take a while to get out of, and feel strange when we are finally free, because we have grown accustomed to desperation.
But everything in life serves a purpose- it may not turn out the way you planned, but every experience was meant to teach you; about yourself and others, and to connect you with the universe.With that realization; every heartache, loss, and tear shed is a lesson; one to look back on, smile, and say: I've learned from it, and am now a better person because of it.
- longing.....
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- xelven_beautyx
- July 31st, 11:58
While I very much enjoy viewing things from the outside of the house:
I realize I also long to be invited inside for dinner with the family every once in a while
(.....especially on those cold rainy nights).
- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
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- xelven_beautyx
- July 30th, 0:20
cynical
Sometimes life sucks!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But then you rant and rave about it for a minute
...and it all seems better.
(Thanks for listening)
- yay!! Finished long ass poem!!
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- xelven_beautyx
- July 15th, 3:56
accomplished
You
(2000 – Revised 2009)
I sit in the corner watching everyone,
As I feel myself become undone,
I grab my knees and begin to cry,
Yearning for myself to die.
Does anyone truly care?
Suddenly I feel a stare…
Then I see you;
Eyes pale as the moon,
With skin so fair,
And beautiful blond hair.
As I brace myself for more lies,
You lift my chin and dry my eyes,
You ask me what’s wrong, and say you care,
So I explain my desire to disappear.
“Come with me”. You say, and I am lifted from the ground,
And taken to a place deemed safe and sound.
“In this place there is no pain,
Never rivalry, nor disdain.
Here you are free from sorrow,
And the emptiness that would follow.”
So secret and melancholy free
This seemed a hopeless dream to me.
I wanted to believe, to let myself go,
But my doubt soon began to grow.
“What is this? Where are we?
Who are you? Why choose me?”
I had so many questions to ask,
My suspicions I could no longer mask.
I could not face you
For fear of the truth.
I did not believe I deserved this,
But still you moved in for a kiss.
I shied away and asked your name
I could not treat this as a game
When you offered no reply,
It only made me want to pry.
When still I heard nothing I turned around;
Realizing I was alone, in this place (so safe and sound).
!~JiLL
- finally! a finished product!
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- xelven_beautyx
- July 15th, 3:25
...and at 3:30am I suddenly get a burst of creativity?! yarr! oh well at least it happens!
will post my finally finished revised old ass poem in like 2 minutes!
- I officially put way too much thought into this.
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- xelven_beautyx
- July 15th, 2:38
tired
Ok Kevin lol sounds fun....my turn!!!
• Post ten of any pictures currently on your hard drive that you think are self-expressive.
• NO CAPTIONS!!! It must be like we're speaking with images and we have to interpret your visual language just like we have to interpret your words.
• They must ALREADY be on your hard drive - no googling or flickr! They have to have been saved to your folders sometime in the past. They must be something you've saved there because it resonated with you for some reason.
• You do NOT have to answer any questions about any of your pictures if you don't want to. You can make them as mysterious as you like. Or you can explain them away as much as you like.
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- Inspired
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- xelven_beautyx
- July 10th, 17:19
productive
Struck with inspiration;
Trying to capture the mood.
Wanting to get out and enjoy the day;
Not wanting to sit and brood.
!~JiLL~!
- One of my poems:
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- xelven_beautyx
- July 9th, 18:16
disappointed
So...I wrote this poem a while back, but it is still one of my favorites....
and I think it does a really awesome job describing how I feel currently.
What's Underneath
When at me you glance,
You see beauty by chance,
But what's underneath,
Is but heartache and grief.
With one generous look, you thought you could heal
All that was shattered and peeled.
As from the outside; you see beauty and pride,
But what is within, is but darkened and grim;
Not a shining flower,
But one darkest hour.
When everything seems like honey and dreams
Look inside and you shall see:
The honey has dried, and the dreams fade away
With every passing day.
But you'll never know,
For it will not show.
And you will not look deeper
Into this castle keeper.
For I have grown numb,
And this flower I've become.
